boys suck…
and this is why I only ever dated older guys…lets see gets made at me for going out with my friends and not bailing on them to hangout with him. yet goes to Daytona beach (um yea spring break just started) doesnt inform me until he is on his way back…
Talking to by best friend isnt even helping.
It’s just showing me how much I have changed, I miss the old me and California me… idk maybe this is just how I feel right now. lets see what the morning brings me emotional wise…
I hit that breaking point today.
And it wasn’t even caused by work. its like everything just crashed at once. when i moved here, I never thought I would want to go back to Cali, but I do. I had control there. Here though I feel like im losing myself and I just cant let that happen again. I got attached as well WTF has this state done to me? I let my self feel again, I thought I could just start over fresh here, but I was wrong, so so so wrong. there is no such thing as starting over is there? everything just ends up following you and haunting you. I’m not sure what I want to do. It’s only been a little over a month. At least i have tomorrow off. Going to get up early do a couple work outs and get the hell out of this apartment. I wish I had someone to talk to that wouldn’t judge me, I have been though a lot and people don’t know that because I’m not a sharer, anymore, that just comes back to attack you later on. It’s also no ones business either. People just really need to stop thinking that they fucking know everything about me when they don’t know shit.
Fasting tomorrow, going to gain back my control. even if it sets me back idgaf.
(Source: swifgrons, via theselfmadeprincess)
(via runswithvamps)
miss him so much its ridiculous…
Why did we have to leave things in such a bad place? Now I’m across the country and unsure when i will ever see him again. Maybe Ill find someone here that will help me forget or at least not think about him so much…
(Source: khatchadourian, via drcandysparkles)
“Before my love for Disney came back into my life I was always really depressed. If Disney hadn’t come into my life when it did I really don’t know where I would be in life. I owe everything to Walt Disney because he taught me that dreams do come true and those words may have just save my life and I can’t thank him enough for that.”
Tomorrow is the day!
I cant sleep.
I cant eat.
I’m nervous beyond anything I have ever felt.
I’m shaking.
I’ll be totally on my own in less then 48 hours. All the way across the country from my family and the people that keep me calm.
But I CAN do this and this WILL be the experience of a life time!
It says its 27°? Wtf. this is california! Florida you better be nice and warm.I can’t take much more if this cold weather!
MUST FINISH PACKING!!!!!
I leave tonight and I feel like I’m going to forget everything.
Tina Fey photobombing at the Golden Globes.
Omg, she’s hilarious.
Anyone who knows me will understand the appreciation I have for this.
Last night in town.
Went to find the hot guy. With three great friends. Ventured up the hill a bit, only to find 30-45 minute waits for dinner. A man who spends to much time where he works, along with not finding his spirit animal.Went on and adventure to find a Panera Bread. First time there. Loved it!! excited that there is one right around the corner from where I’m going to live!
Im going to miss these girls soo much. Thankful that I got to spend my last night on one of our adventures, even if it had to be cut short. Love you guys so much! You better not forget about me! Skype dates to come!
Help me decided what books to take!
Please…
